Today, really cried out to the Lord. First time in a long time i really did so in such a manner. I think it was the accumulation of all the pressures around me that just came crashing down today.
Class totally sucked cos I blanked out, and I started thinking about the same old issues again.. With the troublesome thems in my life, indecisiveness, wondering what I'm doing in finance classes, being fearful of what may come in Sweden, ministry pressures, just not trusting God enough, being so passive, hankering after knowledge and not wisdom, and dwelling on the things that should not be dwelled upon. All these, I simply committed unto the Lord, in the full sense of the Word. And what Aaron prayed for me at YMLC came up again - that in 10 years time, I can look back on my life and proclaim: only God could have done this!
Basically, I want to live life to the fullest for God, I want to go out there, meet people, interact with them, and be that testimony for God wherever I go! I don't want to be bogged down by what people think of me, and I want to rise up with boldness and courage! That's my prayer, O Lord!
I believe, in faith, that what God has said will come to past. I just want to obey. I pray against procrastination, against apathy, against indifference. Knowledge has gotten to me, and I have turned out proud whenever talking to others, when it is humility that the Lord demands of us! I now know that it is wisdom that is required of us, not knowledge; and that sometimes, it is better not to think you know more than the other, for that hinders the love you have for them.
Teach me to love in action and in truth! True understanding that when you love the people around you, the best way to show it is to talk to them and to spend time with them! That is true fellowship! Above all, teach me to love with wisdom too, for the caveat is that I may neglect the things that I hold dear to in life.
By no means am I a finished work, but I go in the faith that God still wants to mould me and use me wherever He calls. I will close today with a verse I gave someone yesterday:
Class totally sucked cos I blanked out, and I started thinking about the same old issues again.. With the troublesome thems in my life, indecisiveness, wondering what I'm doing in finance classes, being fearful of what may come in Sweden, ministry pressures, just not trusting God enough, being so passive, hankering after knowledge and not wisdom, and dwelling on the things that should not be dwelled upon. All these, I simply committed unto the Lord, in the full sense of the Word. And what Aaron prayed for me at YMLC came up again - that in 10 years time, I can look back on my life and proclaim: only God could have done this!
Basically, I want to live life to the fullest for God, I want to go out there, meet people, interact with them, and be that testimony for God wherever I go! I don't want to be bogged down by what people think of me, and I want to rise up with boldness and courage! That's my prayer, O Lord!
I believe, in faith, that what God has said will come to past. I just want to obey. I pray against procrastination, against apathy, against indifference. Knowledge has gotten to me, and I have turned out proud whenever talking to others, when it is humility that the Lord demands of us! I now know that it is wisdom that is required of us, not knowledge; and that sometimes, it is better not to think you know more than the other, for that hinders the love you have for them.
Teach me to love in action and in truth! True understanding that when you love the people around you, the best way to show it is to talk to them and to spend time with them! That is true fellowship! Above all, teach me to love with wisdom too, for the caveat is that I may neglect the things that I hold dear to in life.
By no means am I a finished work, but I go in the faith that God still wants to mould me and use me wherever He calls. I will close today with a verse I gave someone yesterday:
Hear my prayer, O LORD;
listen to my cry for mercy.
In the day of my trouble I will call to you,
In the day of my trouble I will call to you,
for you will answer me.
Among the gods there is none like you, O Lord;
Among the gods there is none like you, O Lord;
no deeds can compare with yours.
(Psalms 86:6-8)
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May the Lord Bless Us and Keep Us Always...
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